Origami Hati

Aqram : Aku rasa baik kau berterus-terang dekat dia je Syah.

Kasyah : Aku rasa lebih baik macam ni Aqram.

Aqram : Kau tau tak apa akan jadi nanti kalau dia tahu sendiri nanti? Ataupun… dia tahu lepas….

Kata-kata Aqram terhenti. Kasyah senyum. Manis.

Kasyah : Aku tahu apa yang kau cuba cakap.

Aqram : Kau tahu kan dia betul-betul sayangkan kau?

Kasyah angguk. Senyum tawar.

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Kasyah membuka satu-persatu bintang origami yang dilipat oleh Kate pada satu ketika dahulu.

"Kalau awak rindukan saya, awak buka bintang-bintang ni ye?"

Kasyah sayang mahu merosakkan bintang-bintang kecil berwarna-warni tersebut, namun hari ini - hatinya tergerak mahu membuka lipatan-lipatan bintang tersebut. Terdapat 78 bintang berwarna-warni yang dilipat Kate.

1. I fall deeply into your SMILE

2. You touch my HEART when you sang ‘Sampai Syurga’ song to me… =)

3. Just like a child, I need you as my BANTAL PELUK… =)

4. In you, I found the other part of ME

5. When I talk, you actually LISTEN

6. When you smile each time you see my face, you make me feel BEAUTIFUL ….

7. Sometimes, both of we are stubborn but you give in FIRST

8. In miserable, I still have YOU

9. You TOLERATE each of my childish acts…..

10. You have the KEY to my heart….. Which no other man can have it as long as the KEY still together with you….

11. Regardless all the girls in your life, I’m your GIRL

12. You COMPLETES my life…..

13. I’m boring, but you’re still in LOVE with me

14. It feels like NOBODY ever knew me before you knew me….

15. Seeing you never make me BORED…. Never…

16. When you SULK, I still think you’re cute….

17. You invisible but somehow I know you’re still THERE

18. Because I’m deeply, madly in LOVE with you

19. You’re SWEET… Sooo sweeettt…. When we broke, you gave me money even though you gonna have to ‘ikat perut’.

20. For the first time in my life my HEART beeping hard when you touch my hand to teach me how to play ‘pool’ (snooker) at the island.

21. Everytime you look at me, you TAKE my breath away.

22. I love the way you LAUGH

23. When we TALK and CHAT till 4 am at the island… I started felt in love with you.

24. When I’m alone, thinking of you and our MOMENT at the island… really makes me happy…

25. I love the way you LAUGH and smile back at me

26. It feels like you’re the ONE for me even in uncertainties

27. You’re my LUCKY charm and I feel lucky to have you

28. Without knowing how, WHEN or from where it comes form, I started loving you

29. You’re my SUNSHINE that glows fully with love!

30. Because we are MEANT to be together

31. My HEART belongs to you till you return it back to me =)

32. For each time you say you LOVE me, I love you more

33. I’m thinking of you EACH night before I go to bed

34. For a few moments in my LIFE you've made me feel as if I truly meant something to someone

35. Once upon a time, I fell for you, I don’t know WHEN but I still love you

36. Everytime I hear ‘NO ONE’ – Alicia Key’s song, I will think about you… =)

37. I feel SAFE everytime you hold my hand when we walk together…

38. You ‘touched’ my heart when you said the ‘WINDSTRUCK’ heroin cute like me… =)

39. I love when you sing in the car and you touch my chin at the same time… =)

40. … PURPLE LOVE – 7th November 2008 is one of the sweetest moment with you in my life… =) (78)

41. I like the feeling when you HOLD ME in your arm whenever we took a train

42. And I like the feeling when you GRAB ME to hug me while you drive… =)

43. I LOVE you more when you bought me ‘Romeo & Juliet’

44. I’m happy whenever you want me to follow you to SPENT TIME with your family.

45. touching whenever you told me that you MISS me…. And I can feel that you really meant it…

46. touching whenever you come to SEE me whenever you reach KL from your hometown…

47. First time I think that you really CUTE whenever you mentioned ‘Muar’… makes me love you more… ^^

48. I’m the happiest person on the earth whenever you gave me the Glow in the dark PENGUIN to me.. It’s sooo damn cute… =)

49.…because you are my PENGUIN… =)

50.… I can see how much you love your parents, care your sis even though you didn’t say it….

51. I’m just looooove to hug you…. =)

52. …. your happy face giving me the MU jersey that you bought for me…. Really makes me smile… =)

53. ….even though me always make you angry/mad, but you are still in love with me…

54. …you never change your Friendster/Myspace/Yahoo password even though you
know I’ll always check them out….

55. …. I love your dark brown eyes…. =) …

56. …. I like your sexy lips…. =p’

57. … u r the only man that I always think about & care at this moment… and till I give you this ‘Star’

58. It’s hard to tell my mind to stop think about you...

59. My heart beats for you…

60. … LOVE to see your eyes whenever you sleep…

61. … I love you BECAUSE I love you… hihihi…

62. …. Im still IN LOVE with you because I’m sure that you are really one nice guy…

63. …man come & go in my life but till now ONLY YOU stick in my heart… =)

64. …again and again…. I love to see your smile….

65. …. I love to see your face after you play futsal…. SERIOUSLY….

66. ….i just LOVE you…. If only I can find the last word to say how much that I love you….

67. …you look soooo cute whenever you dance ‘NOBODY’ song…. ^^

68. For a few moments in my LIFE you've made me feel as if I truly meant something to someone…

69. For each time you say you LOVE me, I love you more….

70. I’m thinking of you EACH night before I go to bed….

71. I’m thinking of you EACH day after I woke up….

72. … you makes me smile whenever you said “saya pengsan tadi sebab cium ketiak sorang mamat india dalam lift”…but I pretend that’s not funny cuz I’m angry with you that time…

73. …I always worried about you….

74. …. i CARE about you every second… every time…

75. …. I’m the happiest person on earth whenever you said that you LOVE and NEED me in your life…

76. … I miss you all the time… ALWAYS… I really do…

77. …. Sometimes … whenever you get mad with me everytime you stress… I will think you cute that way… And my heart will smile… because I LOVE YOU… really do…

78. …. I’m wanna be someone who can cook ‘curry’ for you & our kids … spent a good time every weekend at home… massage you whenever you tired… one fine day….because I LOVE YOU…

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Kasyah : Sayang buat ape tu?

Kate : Tengah sketch gambar buah hati saya.

Kate senyum riang mendengar suara Kasyah di hujung talian telefon. Kasyah senyum tawar.

Kasyah : Siapa buah hati awak tu?

Kate : Adalah sorang mamat tu. Die suka panggil I sayang. Setiap pagi, asal bangun tido aje, die mesti call I. Sebelum tidur aje die mesti call I. Lepas tu, die suka usik I.

Kasyah : Jahat kan mamat tu. Suka ganggu tidur you awal-awal pagi, kalau you tido pun mesti nightmare sebab dengar suara die sebelum tidur. Pastu suka usik you lagi.

Kate : Itulah. Tapi I dah biasa dah. Sekarang ni, I dah tak boleh kalau sehari tak dengar suara dia. I tak boleh kalau sehari dia tak usik I. Nanti kalau I sunyi tanpa semua tu, I akan salahkan you!

Kate tertawa kecil. Kasyah senyum. Matanya mula berkaca.

Kasyah : Eh! Kenapa pulak you nak salahkan I?

Kate : Sebab you lah mamat yang jahat tu.

Kate gelak kecil lagi. Hati Kasyah terasa bagai disiat-siat.

Kasyah : Maafkan I, sayang

Kate mengerut dahi.

Kasyah : Sayang free tak petang ni?

Kate : Kalau untuk you, I free je anytime.

Kate sengih.

Kasyah : Buatkan pulut hitam favourite I? Then bungkuskan, kita makan sama-sama nanti.

Kate : Mengidam ye?

Kasyah : Ye, mengidam nak makan pulut hitam awak yang hangit!

Usik Kasyah. Pernah satu ketika Kate memasak pulut hitam untuk Kasyah. Akibat leka melukis, Kate terlupa untuk mematikan api dapur dan pulut hitam yang dimasaknya hangit.

Kate : Kasyah!!!

Jerit Kate. Kasyah tertawa besar.

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Sayang, I tulis nota lepas I call you tadi. Kepala I tiba-tiba sakit dan I muntah darah banyak sangat sayang.
I taknak call you, sebab I taknak you dengar suara I sakit dan I tak sanggup dengar suara you menangis sayang.
I sempat call Aqram tadi. Aqram tahu segala-galanya. I dah lama disahkan menghidap kanser otak.
I tak ada kekuatan untuk cakap pada you sayang.
I tahu you akan salahkan I sebab nanti you akan sunyi tanpa suara I setiap pagi dan malam.
Tanpa usikan I… I sayangkan you Kate.
I betul-betul sa -

Kate tergamam. Nota Kasyah tak sempat habis ditulis. Dan terdapat kesan-kesan darah di nota tersebut. Aqram memerhati Kate dari jauh. Berat hatinya untuk menghubungi Kate sewaktu dalam perjalanan membawa Kasyah ke hospital. Direnungnya satu bungkusan makanan dan potret Kasyah yang berada di sisi Kate.

Aqram diam terduduk lama sebelum membaca surah Al-Fatihah buat arwah Kasyah.

Tiada duka yang abadi di dunia
Tiada sepi merantaimu selamanya
Malam kan berakhir, hari kan berganti
Takdir hidup kan di jalani

Tangis dan tawa nyanyian yang mengiring
Hati yang rindukan cinta di jalan-Mu
Namun ku percaya hati meyakini
Semua akan indah pada akhirnya

Andai bisa ku mengulang
Waktu hilang dan terbuang
Andai bisa perbaiki s'gala yang terjadi
Tapi waktu tak berhenti
Tapi detik tak kembali
Harap ampunkan hamba-Mu ini

Waktu berputar rembulan dan matahari
Bunga yang mekar akan layu akan mati
Malam kan berakhir, hari kan berganti
Takdir hidup kan di jalani

Andai bisa ku mengulang
Waktu hilang dan terbuang
Andai bisa perbaiki s'gala yang terjadi
Tapi waktu tak berhenti
Tapi detik tak kembali
Harap ampunkan hamba-Mu ini

Andai bisa ku mengulang
Waktu hilang dan terbuang
Andai bisa perbaiki segala yang terjadi
Tapi waktu tak berhenti
Tapi detik tak kembali
Harap ampunkan hamba-Mu ini
Harap ampunkan hamba-Mu ini

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"If you wouldn't smile for life they won't smile back at you"

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With Love,
♥ Juliana Violet ♥